Here I am, sitting in front of the computer once more (like every single day), dedicated to write my report! Instead I start reading Zenhabits, not just because I am a procrastinator, but because I know there always comes something to help. Funny enough, the latest post is called “How I Tackle a Big Writing Project“. Perfect!! Reading through it, I realized once more, how things are actually in flow and that it is my fears, my worries and future predictions that block me from acting.
I have struggled about the subject first: ” Maybe I am the only one that feels the need to slow down? Am I making a project out of my incapabilities of focusing and producing in a high rate?”. I started talking to people, asking them about their paces, their balances in life, rhythms, what makes them fast, what makes them slow. I realized I wasn’t the only one feeling “rushed” but at the same time most people did not want to slow down. Slow had bad connotations: Lazy, stupid, inefficient, late.. Especially in work situations, slowing down meant risking your work, risking to be perceived unwilling. Business was after all busyness. Being busy meant being important, so busyness became a way to prove how good you were in your work. “Oh I was at work/school until 3:00am yesterday” became a phrase to be used to tell how dedicated you were. But then people opened up slowly, someone that was compaining that her collegue was not fast enough, later told me “I do the same task 3 times, because I always have to make it fast, so it always have some mistakes that I need to correct on the next version”. Another person working with sales underlined how he liked the fast lifestyle then confessed that he is having panic attacks due to this fastness created by his job.
So, I got over the insecurities about the subject. There was a deep down need to take a step back and ask “where or what are we running to?”. At this point of the project I was also trying to slow down myself, so I also tried to get a good understanding of different methods that could be used in design. Slow design was one of the most popular topics I
Slowing down in itself required mindfulness and focusing. For the longest time I had believed that focusing would take away the spontaneity of the process, what good is creative process if you don’t do exploration, right?? Close to the end of my project I realized (albeit a bit late) that exploration is nice when not done in a 20 week project with dedicated time slots. Exploration apperantly is better done when looking for a topic and not when trying to fit into a schedule.. Hmm wait, that didn’t work either. I am still trying to figure out the balance of focusing vs being spontaneous.
Focusing and letting go: Don’t put the plans, don’t put the goals. But when you are doing something, focus on doing that thing. Bring all your attention to that single task. And when another task arises (that is not due to your distractedness or fears) see if you are more excited about doing that task. Check with yourself regularly, are you excited about what you are doing still. Continue with the task until you are tired or you can’t avoid the distractions any more. Take a break to enjoy your satisfaction :)) Repeat every day. Set aside time to do it everyday. Have a “quite own zone”. Aside from that zone of yours, be open to new experiences, enjoy each moments as they come. These feel still contradicting to me, but try and see how they actually go hand in hand.
Report writing: Start with the intro, continue to use your research report and move on the the rest. One step at a time.